i'm too young

i'm too young.

i'm too young to say "i can't do it"
i'm too young to say "it's too late"
i'm too young to say "no"
i'm too young to be unfit
i'm too young to take my health for granted
i'm too young to forget what dreams meant
i'm too young to stop believing
i'm too young to get caught in all these "adult" nonsense
.
.
i'm too young to die
nono, i'm too young NOT to live

but mostly, perhaps,
i'm too young to take youth for granted

19 days till exams come!! starting to really feel the jitters. realized i really dun remember anything substantial for cell bio.. sigh skipped n sleep thru too much lectures. 7 exams... 4 in a week.. 3 back to back....

e chance to reach my goal seems slim but i must do everything to try and reach it. just that sometimes really can't stare at notes all day. can't wait for this sem and the next to be over. I love studying, but having 2 force myself to know everything just for grades is really just not me at all. haha many ppl will say they also, but when i look ard, i dun really see ppl enjoying or appreciating wat they learn..i do.. so i think tat e contrast for me is way bigger.


also! in slightly more than a month is my bdae!! gonna be a QUARTER OF A CENTURY old. for e first time im gonna come up w a wishlist, so i'm really not expecting anything haha.. here it goes:
-Sandisk microSD 8GB abt $30 (don't kena tok ah) for my phone
-good reads, maybe Paulo Coelho's "The Winner Stands Alone"
-keyboard cover for laptop
-laptop bag
-laptop stickon cover
-bagpack (my current one that has a slot for laptop can't take much weight.. got function but no durability..zzz)

also, a big thank you to those who gave me the early birthday present! too many to list here alr. I'll organize sth for you guys =)

~they lie to you when they say there's 24 hours in a day.. because each day obviously feels shorter and shorter, except for the occasional days that seemed to take forever~

win vs lose

i wld like to do wat prof k.k said, read the cell before i sleep every night. i wld like to spend time finding and reading on the stuff that interest me. this is WIN.

cramming information from 71 lectures and trying 2 score all for the sake of grades, which i fundamentally is so against, totally kills my mood most of my days. this is LOSE.

tsk tsk.. where is the room for exploration? everything seems dictated.


~and the voices in the head said..~

difficult

it's difficult to stand for that which you do not believe in

~and the voices in the head said..~

selfish ppl

if you noe doing sth tgt is detrimental for me, then y still ask me to do it when its only beneficial to you?

you're so selfish.


~and the voices in the head said..~

one step at a time

Jordin Sparks - One Step At A Time

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]



one step now is mastering one lecture. 71 steps! but can be done. time to get cracking and reach for the stars!!!


~i'll walk before i run, and i know 1 day i'll stop running cos i'll be flying~