conclusion on my birthday

I'm blogging something private here because i want to tell my close friends something that i would not like to repeat over and over again because it hurts. My blog readers are mainly people close to me also.. Names are not included.

I know some of my close friends are concerned about what's going on between me and her and it has since become a forbidden topic because i don't talk about it. I apologize for seeming so distant.

For some time now, i guess both of us wanted to make a firm stand. Basically, i could not feel any effort or appreciation from her and that is because she still has not gotten over the past. Maybe she did appreciate and make efforts, but it wasn't enough or obvious to me. Thus, we both feel that maybe the timing is just bad.

We have left too much unsaid to each other, the words we exchange that night came all too late.

And i realized (too late) that this "One-Person" (whom ALL MY FRIENDS know WHO HE IS) has subtly interfered. Previously this person has said to me that he will not interfere anymore, yet has put on a emo alias which so obviously identifies him and kept wishing us well. Please know that you have done enough harm and your persistent "presence" (i told you i don't want to see your tags on my blog before) is making things harder for both of us to move forward.

You know that we know it's you, so why do it? I can't honestly believe that you have good intentions at all. You know that the best thing for you to do is to disappear from our lives, yet you purposely, intently chose to show yourself here and there. I DO NOT want to see you tagging my blog ever again, nor do i want to hear from you. Please respect my wishes. If you want to contact her, i hope you do remember you can never bring more help than harm. Keep that in mind.

Yea, some of you might think it's just a few tags and whatnot.. Trust me, it's not that simple, i will not divulge much on this even if i'm asked.

All said, i still wish her well and i will miss our insider jokes, songs and fun moments (and many other stuff!). I will let go and I hope she can do the same soon, for her own sake. Some people are not worth your time and thoughts for, you should live your life to the best you can. I'm happy that we're both moving on.

When all is said and done, there's only three words i think that everyone could use.

Life goes on.

Maybe it's not mean to be, but hey, this is life, it doesn't always work the way you want it to. What matters is you try and remember the good part of it.

~thanks for the memories~